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I am a long-time reader of the site and I have a love/hate relationship with it's author. But here is what I came up with, click to peep a masterpiece in detail:

real fuckin question?

doesn't anyone think this is a good poem? look below.

About A Week of Memories

Bad poetry won't change your mind
Hopefully it will help change mine
I was drinking when we talked so I'm not sure
But I think you said you don't wanna see me any more
I wanna call you up and pour my heart into your ear
Tell you my dumb feelings and that I want us to be near
I wanna scream out your name and cry on your shoulder
"I can change, you can be the general and I'll be the soldier"
About a week a memories and a list of character flaws
And a heart that feels like it was bitten by Jaws

Your big sharp teeth tear me apart, I'm drifting out to sea now blood mixing with the water like a bloody mary. You took a big bite of out of my heart and swam deep below. As I float here alone, dying, I call out your name but you are far away, under the dark waves.

Here are the reasons you gave me for not wanting to see me again:
1. I'm too negative
2. I'm too needy
3. I don't let you talk

Dance Party In My Mind

There's a dance party in my mind
Disco playing all the time
Flashing lights and bumping bass
Smiles on every face

Little Michael is there too
Wearing his best dancing shoes
The floor is packed to every song
And the beat keeps rocking on and on...

Random shit

I’m really depressed
Just like all the rest
Of the kids who don’t have any friends
I make it seem
Like I have all that I need
But how long can I pretend?

Sitting at the lunch table all alone
Will make a person mad
Can’t cry when sad

Used to be popular, but things change
Started acting strange

I’m not on My Space
And fuck AIM
Got an email account I never check
But I’m on my computer all day long
Listening to music while killing people all over the world
I watch TV till the sun comes up
And put off my homework till the morning of
This is a lifestyle I don’t suggest

Imagine

Imagine
By John Lennon

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

the best paris hilton pics EVER!!!!

Believe it or not not, I didn't write Baby Luv on that photo!!! I guess other people love that little monkey as much as me!!

Feeling a little better...

Feeling A Little Better:
I like girls with hair like the sea
I like you
I don't know you
The more I find out the more I wish I never asked
But I can't turn away
I'm desperate and lonely and you're all I can get
You like me and you let me know it
And that makes nothing else matter

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Well, this should be my weekend review, but I have decided to stop writing weekend reviews. This is because I'm pretty sure I forgot to write a some over the last few month, no one reads then anyway, and I never do anything interesting enough to write about. So, yeah, I'm sure you can tell that my weekend review idea was kinda pointless. I will continue to update this blog and talk about my life and other fun stuff.

Paris Hilton has a pet monkey named Baby Luv

An Ode To Baby Luv:

Baby Luv oh Baby Luv
what a lucky monkey
how did you find your way into her arms
where I want to be
1 in a million, where did she find you
in the wild or in a zoo?
you love her with all your little heart
not for her money like so many have
you'll never see her green movie
don't know your name is silly
but you love unconditionally

Weekend #9

As you may or may not of noticed this is my third post in about 10 minutes. I haven't updated this site in a few weeks so I'm making up for lost time. Anyway, last weekend, after my drawing class, some semi-friends and me went to a few different art galleries. The first friday of every month in Portland Maine is First Friday Art Walk. That means about 30 different art galleries are open to the public for free and most have free wine and cheese. So, we walked around getting drunk for free!! And saw some cool art as well. Then I went back to a friend's apartment. Smoked some weed. It was ok. Saturday I didn't do anything.

Weekend #8

I watched t.v., used the computer, slept and ate food. Nothing to report except that my life is boring. Oh yeah...I made something for all you reading these words:

Weekend #7

My parents and I went to my grandparent's house in Nashua N.H. It was to celebrate my birthday. They gave my $100 and a few hugs. Nothing else to talk about.

My 22nd Birthday + Weekend Recap #6

Today, October 20th, is my 22nd birthday!!! Yeah for me!!!! I went out to dinner with my parents and they gave me some stupid cd's and stuff. Unfortunately, I have no friends to hangout with. =( Well, I had to have a birthday post, even though I have nothing to say.

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I haven't posted what I did last weekend yet, so I will: Nothing. Fuck! It sucks being in college and not having any friends. Well, it probably sucks to have no friends in general, no matter where you are. I bet there are other kids sitting in their dorm rooms, on this campus, who have no friends. Who are you? We should be friends! If you go to University of Southern Maine and want to hang out, email me!

Art!!!!

I made this!
From left to right, top to bottom: Jodie Foster, Ingrid Bergman, Kate Winslet, Mia Farrow, Susan Sarandon, Julia Roberts, Kirsten Dunst, and Nicole Kidman.

A post about nothing but boredom (Weekend #5)

A "friend" of mine gave me Photoshop and now I can fuck with images like the one on the left! Isn't that cool? Well anyway, this should be my weekend review post but because of the holiday, I don't have classes on monday or tuesday. I'm so bored right now sitting in my dorm room. My roommate has gone home and there's almost no one else here either. I should go home. Bored Bored Bored... I wanna start writing poetry. Whatever, bye.


Edit: I don't really feel like writting about this weekend but I will because the plan is to write about every weekend of this school year. Anyway, I went to a party on friday, the first party i've been to in a long while. It was fun but my friends went to Denny's and never came back to get me. I ended up walking through Portland in the pouring rain and taking a $20 cab ride to my house. NOT COOL! The rest of the weekend was even worse. Lets just say I was lonely.

Keep on keepin on (and on and on...)

My Soundtrack To Life:
*Opening Credits: Untitled 3 – Sigur Ros
*Waking Up: Lokicat – Jimmy Chamberlin Complex
*Average Day: Lovely Day – Bill Withers
*First Date: Falling For You – Taking Back Sunday
*Joy Ride Scene: Far Behind - Candlebox
*Love Scene: Luna – Smashing Pumpkins
*Fight Scene: Cross Out The Eyes - Thursday
*Breaking Up: If I’m Waiting – Jason Anderson
*Getting Back Together: Parking Lot – Mineral
*Secret Love: Out Loud - Dispatch
*Life's Okay: Float On – Modest Mouse
*Mental Breakdown: Astronomy Domine – Pink Floyd
*Driving: Neighborhood #3 – Arcade Fire
*Learning a Lesson: Change – Blind Melon
*Deep Thought: First Cool Hive – Moby
*Flashback: I Was There – Green Day
*Partying: Crazy In Love – Beyonce
*Happy Dance: I’m So Excited – Pointer Sisters
*Regretting: Whiter Shade Of Pale – Procol Harum
*Long Night Alone: Everybody’s Gotta Learn Sometime – Beck
*Death Scene: Stone In Focus – Aphex Twin
*Closing Credits: Don’t You Forget About Me – Simple Minds

I got this survey from, From A Shadows Viewpoint.

Happy Birthday Susan Sarandon!

To celebrate Susan Sarandon's 59th birthday, I'm posting some pics of her for your viewing pleasure, enjoy!

Friday & Saturday (#4)

Well, if you want to know what I did over the weekend I'll tell you: Nothing. My t.v., my computer, and I spent the weekend together. It was amaaaazing!!!!
Over the weekend, I found a picture of myself on the College Of Santa Fe website. I was a student at that school last year and one day they were taking pictures for their website. I'm the kid on the bed in the blue shirt. The picture was totally fabricated, the photographer set up the scene and told us to look like we were friends.

Another weekend ends (#3)

Well, I finally called Maureen on Thursday night. She was surprised to hear from me and admitted she didn't think I was gonna call. We only talked for about 30 seconds before she told me she would call me back because she was just getting off a plane. But, she never called back. =( This is because, A: she didn't want to talk to me, or B: I had called her from my dorm phone, using a phone card and the number that showed up on her phone wasn't mine. I thought about calling her back, but that would just seem too desperate. Soooo, whatever, fuck it, there's a million other girls out there.

My weekend was pretty uneventful. On Friday, I sat under a bridge drinking beers with a kid from my drawing class. We went to a hookah bar with some of his friends from high school. I guess it was an ok night. Saturday I stayed in my room, lonely and depressed, and did nothing. My first few weeks at this school were filled with good times and fun but now it's different. I eat my meals by myself everyday. I talk to almost no one in any given day. I have to make a change. My self appointed goal for the week: Make some friends. Wow, I feel immature or something.

Weekend reveiw (#2)

I would have written this earlier but I've been really depressed lately, I don't know why. My weekend was full of little adventures and good times but since monday I've been totally apathetic. I don't want to do my homework or blog or do anything that takes effort. Anyway, I'm feeling better now for no apparent reason.

If anyone read my earlier post they would know the situation with my friend Jill. Well, I finally called her last thursday and apologized for not showing up the weekend before. I also asked her if I could stop by this weekend and she said sure. She said I could come over anytime, spend the night and she would give me a ride back to the dorms the next day.

Friday: After my drawing class, me and my two friends in the class went and smoked some weed. Then we went downtown and got burritos. They decided to call it a night around 11:00 PM but I didn't want to. I went to Jill's house. But, when I got dropped off there by my friends, only her roommates were home. They informed me Jill had gone to a Red Socks game. WTF!?!? Even though it was pouring rain, I decided to hike it back downtown. I got there about 45 minutes later, soaking wet and lonely.
I went into a bar and bought a beer and then another. I left the bar and stood under an umbrella where some nice looking people were also standing. I asked for the time and inadvertently started a conversation. We talked for a few minutes and they suggested I go to a bar called Gritty's, where a lot of young college kids hang out. I thanked them and walked back out into the pouring rain. Luckily, all the bars in Portland are only about a minute away from each other.
When I got there, I bought a beer and somehow started talking to an innocent looking girl. For some reason I told her I had a blog and she admitted that she was a compulsive blog reader! Hahahahahaha!!!!! Isn't that perfect? So, we talked for awhile about a whole bunch of stuff. She told me her name was Maureen and she gave me her number. I told her I would call her on Saturday about going to a concert. I took a cab to my mom's house.

Saturday: I called my art class friend about the concert she was going to. She was wasted and told me to meet her and her friends in line at 8:00PM. I then called Maureen. Damn! She didn't pick up, I didn't leave a message and I didn't call back. I go to the concert. The band was called Badfish, it's a Sublime cover band. They were really good, the crowd was crazy and I got to release a lot of my pent up energy by jumping around and stuff.
After it ended, my friends and I hung out and I went back to the dorms the next day.

So, it's now 10:00 on Tuesday night and I still haven't called Maureen since that one time I called and she didn't pick up. Everyday since then I have told myself I'm gonna call her but I've been scared. I don't think she'll like the person I am when I haven't had a few beers. I wont be as social or as funny or as cool. But, I decided, if I don't call her tomorrow, I wont call her at all. My mom told me a million times, "It never hurt to try." I'll call her tomorrow. Wish me luck, dear reader.

R.I.P. Grace Kelly (1929-1982)

The talented and beautiful actress Grace Kelly died 23 years ago today. She stared in many great films throughout the 50's and 60's including such classics as High Noon, Dial M for Murder and the brilliant Rear Window. She won the academy award for best actress in 1955 for The Country Girl. Unfortunately, Grace Kelly was killed in a tragic car accident at the age of 52. (If you have no idea who Grace Kelly was I suggest you watch the films I mentioned above and check out the pics I have posted below.)

My strange weekend highlights (#1)

Prologue: Hello readers! Ok, I'm going to use part of this blog as a sort of diary for all to read. Starting with this weekend, I will write about all the major events in my life, the good and the bad. The things worth reading about (hopefully). I'm not going to write about the past, just the things that happen to me in the future. Does that make sense and doesn't it sound interesting? It does? Great! Read on...

Friday: So, this was the first weekend of the school year for all us University Of Southern Maine students. I live in the dorms but my roommate went home to see his girlfriend, so I couldn't hangout with him. I hadn't made friends with any fellow students but I had planned to go to my friend Jill's apartment. I had told her I'd be over after my class on friday.
Long story short, I met two kids in the class and went over to one of their apartments after the class had ended. It turns out these kids are big weed smokers and so are all their friends. Don't get me wrong, I love smoking weed but it had been about 2 months since I had last smoked. Anyway, we smoked a lot of weed that night. We also got drunk and wondered around Portland. I also won at beer pong. I'm awesome.
I'm 21 and these kids are like 18 and 19, I always find myself hanging out with younger people, I don't really know why. But after some drink and smoke it's like you're old friends. Anyway, when we finally got to bed we slept like babies.

Saturday: The next morning, after leaving my new friend's house, I wait for a bus to go back to the dorms. I wait for an hour but the bus never shows up, I decide to wonder around Portland.
I'm wondering around and walk up to some random kids sitting on a stoop. We meet each other. It's a boy and a girl about my age. They look like a middle/lower class couple, but it turns out the boy is gay and the girl is a lesbian. They are also both recovering alcoholics. Funny huh? Needless to say, they turned out to be very interesting people. We all bummed around for about an hour and then I got a bus back to the dorms.

PS: I still haven't called my friend Jill who's apartment I was supposed to go to on friday. I wish that I hadn't blown her off like that. I don't know if she will still want to be my friend. Honestly, I hate to say this but, If she wasn't fat I probably would have called that night and told her I wasn't coming. When my new friends asked me to hangout with them they actually asked me if I was doing anything that night. I was like, "ahhh...no." I actually thought about it, but for some reason I said no. Why do I do shit like that? I'm gonna call her tomorrow. If you read this and have a suggestion, could you please leave it in the comment section? Thanks.

"George Bush doesn't care about black people!"

Everybody already knows all about what happened so I wont waste you're time with a description of the incident. (If you have no idea what I'm talking about see the video at the bottom of this post.) But, does anyone else think it's kind of strange that Kanye goes all outspoken on national TV the same week as his new album is released? Hummm... I mean, I totally agree about what he said, but I just think he may have done it to get more attention directed at him. I've listened to some of the new album and I didn't hear anything resembling political ideas or his supposed hatred of George Bush.
Video

First pic ever!

The beautiful Alexis Bledel from Gilmore Girls. Yup that's her.

PS: I'm just getting shit worked out right now kiddies, but come back in a day or two and what you will find here will be like that brand new bike under the tree on Christmas morning. You know what I'm talking about, it's got a big red bow tied on it, you walk out into the living room in you're pajamas, you're parents are sipping coffee and you're dad has his arm around you're mom. Good times. Anyway, it will be something like that. Bye.

My first post ever!

Ok, here you are at my blog, who knows how you arrived but it makes no difference. Everyone is equal here, and know that I love you all. Who am I, you may be wondering? Well, we all come from the same place and all end up in the same place as well. No just kidding! (or was I...) Anyway, that's my wisdom for today. More later.

Stuff about me:
Name: john_r_s
Sex: Male
Age: 21
Height: 5'9
Skin color: White
Location: Maine, USA
Profession: College Student

PS: I just started this blog thing today, so sorry if it sucks.

PPS (PSS?): I was laying in bed last night and thinking about my new blog and decided to take off the stupid lie I had originally posted as my first post. So I did. From now on, everything I write on this blog will be completely truthful and from my heart.